Prior to my recent trip to Toronto, I’ve cut drinking out significantly. However, I knew that when I’m reunited with my friends from Boston, we’re all truly a bunch of drunkards at heart haha. I had stayed at the same hotel as my friend T and his wife since I didn’t really want to stay at a hotel entirely by myself. They had arrived a day after me so I was patiently waiting for them. All of us didn’t really have much plans besides dinner plans together as well as attending our friend’s wedding. I didn’t want to disrupt T and his wife if they had plans to visit family in Toronto. Due to the short time that we all had in Toronto, we decided to just kick it together during the entire trip.
I’ve known T since I was 12. He literally looks the same, acts the same, and he’s a great guy. He was like a big brother to me and I was like his little sister. Of course with age, there was a point we grew distant. Nothing bad happened. We just shifted to different social circles, but even then we still kept in touch to some degree. T got married 3-4 years ago and I wasn’t invited to the wedding. Honestly I was hurt by that, but realistically we weren’t that close so it was understandable as to why I wasn’t invited. Yet a part of me felt like he had a change of heart and didn’t like me. Not sure where it came from but just probably me overthinking shit.
When T and his wife finally arrived to the hotel, we decided to meet up and grab a drink at the hotel bar before dinner. My general go to drink is a gin and tonic with a splash of pineapple juice. T had the same thing in mind…minus the pineapple juice, but he ordered the same thing as me. Then he got hooked on them haha. We all chatted a bit before walking over to the restaurant to meet up with our other friend. As happy as I was to see T, I still felt kinda wary around him. I really don’t know why. As we were out at dinner pretty much drinking away and bar hopping, we still returned to the hotel sober. Not sure how that’s possible but okay haha. T’s wife isn’t much of a drinker and decided to head back to their room while T and I were still ready to go at it more drinks haha.
After T and I immediately rushed to the hotel bar and got settled in, we ordered our “usual” gin and tonic with a splash of pineapple juice. We were just chatting about everything and catching up. It’s been YEARS since T and I have had one on one time together. I truly can’t even recall the last time that it was just us hanging out and no one else. He had vented to me about some things as did I. I told him about the hell that I was living in for the past 2 years and how hard and lonely it was for me. I even told him that I thought he hated me over the years. He reassured me that he didn’t and we just continued chatting about more things. A lot of things that we talked about that night made me feel really close to him again. I definitely was not drunk with all the things that I talked about. Actually, I was close to confessing to him that I like his older brother lol so that was a close call haha. I gave him a quick summary of what has happened to me in the nearly 5 years that I’ve been gone and pretty much pouring out my heart. I was reminded how lonely and heartbroken I truly am, but despite that I still have a great friend by my side.
We ended the night with delicious drinks and great conversation. I paid for the tab and he said “thank you mui mui (little sister)” and that really tugged on them heartstrings. I felt more at ease about a lot of things between T and I. I had left Toronto a day before everyone else to head back to Cali. While I was waiting to board my flight, I had texted T that morning and told him how I really appreciated our heart to heart, how much I truly value our friendship and how he made me feel better knowing that no matter how many years go by, he is still the same great guy that I met nearly 20 years ago. He thanked me and since coming back from that trip, we’ve kept in touch. I still feel so emotional from our bonding session. I don’t know why it’s hitting me so hard still. To my belief, I think I’m just so overwhelmed by the love and support from an old friend. There’s just certain bonds that you have with people that you’ll hold so close to you and the bond that I have with T is just that.