Unfulfilled with Work

The title of this post is pretty self-explanatory. For quite some time I’ve felt this way about my current job. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate it. I’m just bored. I’m eager to want to learn more, to contribute more and to simply be valued. I’m just not really getting any of that. This job is still a huge transition for me. To work even more independently than I ever have as well as adapting to a team and boss that is practically 100% remote. I knew what I was getting myself into when I came on board and this was a challenge that I was ready to take on. I am definitely grateful to have a supportive boss that has so much trust in me and to work with a team filled with really smart and talented people. Sometimes we all feel a bit greedy and selfish and just crave for more.

I’ve felt a bit uninspired and unmotivated due to all of those things so I’m really trying to pick up my own weight and get it together. I’ve been searching for design events to go to, which there’s an abundance of in the Bay Area. Searching and signing up to go is one thing, but to actually show up is another. I’m making it a much more conscious effort to show up and to stop being so antisocial when it comes to these things. As I’ve gotten “older” now, I really don’t care to mingle with others like I used to back in Boston. I used to be a social butterfly and I enjoyed it. Now I feel like that cranky old lady that just wants everyone to fuck off haha.

Last week I went to a design event that was hosted right across the street from my office, so I really couldn’t skip out on that one. But that day I worked from home and wasn’t in the mood. I cringed at the thought of getting ready to go, but did so anyways. Got myself together, grabbed my business cards and just sucked it up. When I got there, it was 5 minutes before the presentation started. I immediately went to the bar and had myself a couple glasses of wine just to put myself at ease. I started chatting with the girl next to me, chatted with a couple people that were standing around waiting to chat with the UX director and to exchange business cards, and I unexpectedly ran into this guy that I went to college with whom I had design classes with. It was an interesting and productive night. I was proud of myself for going and expanding my network.

I think in the back of my mind I’m scared that this won’t last long. Oddly in the first time in my career, I’m lacking a bit of confidence in myself as a designer. I have doubts that I can’t hold my own or to excel to my best potential. Most creatives (and non-creatives) run into this “creative block” and I like to refer to it as a design funk. My goals this year was to attend design events, carry my Fujifilm x100t around more,  and find new cafes to work remotely/read. They’re pretty straight forward goals. For now, I’m trying my best to keep myself as inspired and motivated as I can.

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3 comments
  1. What are some tips for networking with ease and confidence? It would be difficult for me to just walk into a room full of strangers (even if they are in the same industry) and start chatting away.

    • Connie said:

      Do what I did and just drink a lot of wine before you start mingling 🙂

      Okay in all seriousness, this is going to sound so cliche but honestly just be yourself. When going to events by myself or having an interview, I like to treat it as a casual conversation/interaction. I don’t think too much into it because I feel like the conversations/interactions won’t be as organic. The more you think about it, you just end up freaking yourself out for no reason. Plus, there’s nothing to be nervous/scared about just to say hi to someone. A good practice to start yourself off is when you go to another networking event, try to talk to at least 1-2 people. At the next one 2-3 people. Just baby step your way into networking with others. I know it can be intimidating, but the more you network, the better you’ll get at it. Hope this helps!

      • Thanks for the tips. Maybe I’ll print your comment and bring it with me to networking events. 🙂

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