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On Friday afternoon after lunch, I took my friends to the Tech Museum to check out the Star Wars exhibit. I’ve been wanting to check it out and was excited that they had extended the exhibit. They were excited to check out the exhibit so I was relieved that they’d enjoy it. Before we started talking through the exhibit we asked someone to take a picture of us in front of the Star Wars sign and we all stood there doing the Spock hand gesture. Obviously we know it’s Star Trek but we just thought it’d be funny lol. It was pretty cool to see the models of the crafts and costumes. It was a small exhibit but definitely worth checking out if you’re in San Jose. We didn’t get to explore the rest of the Tech Museum as much since my friend wasn’t feeling well. We were playing with these light magnets on the wall and just played around with that and I spelled out ‘Boston’ haha. It just seemed like a big playground for adults as well as children haha. I definitely want to come back and check it out again. I heard about the Tech After Hours event that they have on Thursdays. Hopefully my next visit here will be for that. 🙂

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On Wednesday night, my friends from into SJ from Boston to visit me for my birthday. I was so exhausted waiting up for them since their flight got delayed. Once I saw them walk out I got out of my car and ran to them and started crying. I know I’m such a softie lol. I was so happy and relieved to see my friends. After I picked them up we went to Buffalo Wild Wings for some drinks since the options to grab a drink on a Wednesday night were kinda limited. Of course we’d have a few shots and drinks, but it was nice hanging out like that even for a little bit before we got some rest. I felt like my old self again and I was just really happy.

We headed to SF on Thursday afternoon and made it in time for brunch at Mama’s on Washington Square. Parking was kind of a pain but luckily it didn’t take too long and waiting in line to get seated wasn’t too bad either. I heard that there’s usually a crazy line. It was a cute and cozy place. The food there was good, but I’ve had better brunch lol. I’d give it 3 out of 5 stars. I got my usual smoked salmon eggs benedict, but they call it the Norwegian here. The Bloody Mary was alright. It had soju in it instead of vodka. Once again, I’ve had better brunch elsewhere haha.

After brunch we headed straight to the Golden Gate Bridge. This was my second time here and I was at more of the touristy side where they had a cafe and a souvenir shop. The last time I went I drove over the bridge and was in a parking lot. I preferred the side I was at this time. Got much better views and we got to walk a little bit over the bridge. I was scared shitless to walk over it because I’m really scared of heights. Got some great shots of the bridge. It was awesome that it wasn’t foggy like last time. We lingered around and took lots of photos.

Afterwards we headed to the Japanese Tea Garden. Luckily we made it in time because they were about to close in 15 minutes. Even better that I found parking on the street. I really loved this place! I definitely wanna come back here again and just chill with a book or something. It was really small but it’s was very relaxing. Maybe one day when I become a baller, I’ll build a garden like this in my back yard haha. It was a really cute place and we got to chill for a bit and enjoy some tea.

Our next destination was the California Academy of Sciences. I always heard great things about Thursday nights here because of their “NightLife” they have here weekly. We browsed at the map of what to check out, instead we just walked around and got to see a lot. It was pretty cool. I think we might’ve missed seeing a couple of things but that’s okay. It was still a good time.

The final destination was to get dinner at The View. It was located on the top floor of the Marriott Hotel. Pretty much suppose to be a great view of SF. I have to say Boston’s Top of the Hub and the Signature Lounge in Chicago had better views of the city. At least there was glass windows all around so you can see better. Nonetheless the seat we got, we were able to see the Golden Gate Bridge so that was cool. The food was actually pretty good. Got myself the braised short ribs and the drinks there were good too. I guess I can’t complain too much about the place haha. After we finished our dinner and as I was staring out the window, I noticed the waitress’ reflection. I saw her holding a dessert platter with a candle lol. I was thinking I hope that’s not for me and possibly for the table next to us. Nope! Haha. My friends were so sweet and arranged for this. I started crying because I was so surprised and overwhelmed by their kindness. I rarely ever get surprises especially like that so it was extremely sweet and thoughtful of them. The dessert sucked here but hey it was the thought that counts lol. My friends picked up what to get on the dessert platter. The only one I liked was the espresso creme brûlée. Creme brûlée is one of my favorite desserts and I’m glad they remembered since I don’t have much of a sweet tooth haha.

At this point we were so exhausted and it was only 9 or 10 PM haha. Talk about grandma status. We accomplished a lot with the sightseeing. Definitely a productive day. It was nice to have checked out these places with someone that’s actually never been to these places. I just couldn’t get over how nice it was that day. Perfect weather with great company.

Hands down one of the best days I’ve had since I’ve been here in Cali. 🙂

It’s 11:00 PM PST. Only one hour left until my birthday is over. I have to say today was a great day. It was hands down one of the most low key birthdays that I’ve ever had. I was dreading my birthday a lot this year due to lack of company and just being away from home in general. I was really unhappy to spend it alone. I wasn’t expecting a big party or to go out and get drunk. I’d be fine with doing anything with good company, but once again I lack in that department. I didn’t want to be all mopey on my birthday, so last night I made a “birthday to do list”. It’ll give me some thing to do and won’t leave me throughout the day feeling like “well what now?”. I was looking forward to accomplishing what was on the list. It really wasn’t much but to me it meant a lot. I do a lot of those things on a daily basis but still.

As soon as I woke up I got ready and wore my favorite color, yellow and made myself a nice breakfast before I got a jump start on my list. I didn’t think the list was gonna keep me busy today but it definitely surprised me. I think the one thing I spent the longest time with was buying myself flowers. I really didn’t wanna get roses and I’m generally not a fan of the mixed bouquets. I went to 3 different places and finally the last place satisfied me. As much as I didn’t want to get roses, I loved the color of these. They’re a nice lavender purple. Pictures of it doesn’t do its justice. As soon as I got home with the bouquet I arranged it in the only vase I have which was being used for something else. Glad I managed to fit the flowers in it. I didn’t really wanna drive out again to buy a vase if it didn’t fit. I’m happy with the way it came out. For whatever reason I find it relaxing and a bit calming when I arrange flowers. I always hand pick a bouquet for my mom and I arrange it to my likings rather than how the florist does it.

Anyways, today was the first time where I went to watch a movie by myself. I never thought it was weird or wrong to watch a movie by yourself. I just prefer to have company so I can discuss the film with someone afterwards. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be to watch it alone and I actually enjoyed it. I decided to watch “Her”. I heard great things and the trailer definitely intrigued me. I caught the early bird showing of it and sat smack in the center. I’ll probably write an in depth post about the movie, but I loved it. Great movie! So far one of my favs for 2014. There’s gonna be some great upcoming movies that I saw during the previews. I’m excited for that as well!

There were some last minute additions to my plans today, which was fine with me since I had accomplished most of it. There’s this guy H who I’ve been talking to. No, not pursuing him. Just only as friends. Really nice and funny guy. He was really nice and suggested to take me out for lunch and dessert, but I was already on my way to the movies and whatnot. So we made plans to have dinner and dessert instead when he got out of work. It was a pretty adventurous dinner plan that we had haha. He was looking up places last minute and kept mentioning to go eat pho. I was ready to back hand him if that was gonna happen lol. We headed to this sushi restaurant in Fremont, but turned out it was closed for maintenance. Total fail! So then we headed to another one that was also located in Fremont called Satomi Sushi. The sushi there was sooooo good! I’m glad H checked Yelp to see what was recommended. There was this photo of a super large maki and apparently it was on the secret menu. We asked the waitress for it and we were excited to try it as well as the other things we ordered. When we finished our meal, H was gentlemen and paid. I felt horrible since it was our first time hanging out and I don’t care if it’s my birthday or not. I just didn’t want him to be forking out money like that during our first hangout. Afterwards, we just headed to get some milk tea at Ten Ren in Milpitas. Soon we called it a night and plus food coma was kicking in.

When I got home it was still relatively early. It was only 8PM and I realized I didn’t get myself some cake. Milk tea was our dessert after dinner but that’s because we were super full from the sushi. I drove down the street to this dessert spot near my place and picked up this chocolate hazelnut mousse cake. I was tempted to get tiramisu but I wanted to try something different. I was happy with my selection because it tasted just like Ferreira Roche chocolates. So yummy!!! Now I’m just finishing up this post and enjoying my beer in bed. Probably gonna read my book and call it a day soon.

Overall it was a great day and I was overwhelmed with the kindness of my friends from back at home texting me all day. It really meant a lot to me. I was surprised that certain people remembered it, but then again disappointed that I didn’t hear from one person, but it’s okay. I’m not surprised. Last night when I was chatting with my close friend A, she was really sweet and mentioned how she’ll check in with me throughout the day to see the status of my birthday to do list. I literally teared up when she said that. Although I had company during dinner, I still wanted to be around someone. Just to sit and talk. But at least having some company was better than none at all. Before I started on this post, I got to Skype with my dad so that was great as well. I felt very loved today but deep down I feel very lonely still. I did a good job masking it all today with my optimism and just embracing the day for what it is. I’m glad I was able to stay occupied throughout the day. I feel very successful in accomplishing such simple tasks today. Turning 26 didn’t feel too bad after all. I think this is a newfound tradition of mines. Maybe next year’s list will be much more epic. 🙂

I’ve been meaning to make a trip to the farmer’s market to see what flower selections they might possibly have as well as to pick up some produce. Sometimes when I go grocery shopping I like to just take a quick peek at what flower selections they have just for the hell of it. A month ago I saw that there was peonies in stock at my local grocery store. I was really excited to see them there and was tempted to buy a couple stems for my room. I passed on buying them and when I did reconsider going back to the grocery store a couple days later they were all gone. I was so bummed out haha. Peonies are one of my favorite flowers. I’ve never been the typical roses kinda gal. I like the smell of roses but I don’t care for the actual flower. Back then I used to love stargazer lilies, but not anymore. I don’t know why I like peonies so much, but I do.

Sadly for being a grown woman, I’ve never ever had anyone buy me flowers. Not even from my family for graduations or birthdays. Shit, not even from ex-boyfriends. It just shows how shitty the guys I dated really were lol. Oh well, but it is what it is. It’s one of the most simple things I could ever ask for as a gift. I’d be fine if you even picked the flowers from a garden or even give me one stem of a peony since I know how pricey they are. I’m not one to demand for an obnoxiously massive bouquet. That’s just a bit much haha. I’m a quality over quantity kinda gal. I am very simple minded. Perhaps too simple for my own good lol. A lot of the things I like doesn’t match up with most girls. I kinda have this weird theory that one day when a guy buys me flowers, he might be the right one. Silly and stupid thought but whatever. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with buying flowers for yourself. I’m not gonna wait forever for someone to get me something so simple haha. If it was in my funds, I’d probably buy myself fresh flowers once a month. There’s something refreshing about having fresh flowers in your room. For now my artificial peony on my nightstand shall suffice. 🙂

A couple of days ago I started experiencing some pain on my lower back. I tried doing stretches and massaging it to relieve the pain. The pain has definitely progressively gotten worse. Earlier today I went for a nice, long walk hoping it might help to get some light exercise. Nope! After that walk, I iced my back and took a nap. Did that help? Nope! Luckily my brother is a physical therapist and I asked him for his advice as to what ointment I should resort to. His suggestion of Biofreeze didn’t help since you can only get it at a clinic. I took his second suggestion of Aspercreme and went to the store right away. Getting in and out of my car was a total struggle. I literally screamed because it hurt that much to even slowly maneuver myself into my own car. You can imagine all the curse words coming out of my mouth when I was doing this. Of course with my luck that when I got to the store there was only one huge tube of Aspercreme. Even the generic store brand was out of stock. I just bought it because I couldn’t even handle walking around the store because that’s how much discomfort I was in. Otherwise, I would’ve gone next door to Target or something. Even as I’m sitting here at my desk writing this entry I feel really irritated because of the pain.

As I’m trying to take care of myself, I got kinda sad because I don’t have anyone here to help me. That’s the downside of living in a place with no family or friends nearby. I’ve automatically crossed out my one flakey friend here to help me since she’s unreliable. It just kinda sucks not being able to rely on anyone for a little bit of help. I’ve always been quit independent, but it just seems as I’ve gotten older I’m definitely more accident prone. No bueno.

It also made me think about this conversation I had with one of my close friends. C had asked if it was okay for her to list me as her emergency contact. Of course I was okay with that. If any of my friends wanted to put me down, then I’m more than glad for them to do that. I remember how easy it was back then to list my parents as my emergency contact, even when I had moved out. But now I feel like it’s so different. If something was to happen to me, my parents nor my friends can just drive down the street. They’d have to hop on a 6 hour plane ride to get to me. Recently when I had to fill out this volunteer waiver form and I had to put down my emergency contact, I was hesitant and just got kinda sad.

It just kinda sucks knowing that I don’t have anyone close by to take care of me especially during a time like this.

One of the many things I dreaded the most was to deal with the DMV especially in a new state. We all know how much of a pain in the ass it can be with the waiting and whatnot. As much as I didn’t want to, I booked an appointment to schedule getting a Cali drivers license. I wish I could just transfer my MA license like how they do it down in AZ. Makes things so much easier!! I was dreading the written test because I haven’t taken it in 10 years and I’m a horrible test taker lol. Thankfully my visit at the DMV today went smoothly and I passed. I absolutely hateeee my photo for my license. Extremely fugly lol. Not sure what the lady was doing when she snapped the photo, but it essentially looks like a horrible close up but with my chin raised up. Sighs haha.

I was kinda sad when they unvalidated my MA license. I kinda cringed but I do have a back up MA license for when I thought I lost mines haha. I know it’s not a big deal with switch licenses, but for me it was. It was the stamp on the envelope that sealed the deal for me living here in California. I just feel like I’m kinda locked down now and that I have to stay here. Obviously no one is forcing me to stay here, but still I digress. I’m definitely no longer a Massachusetts resident that I’ve always been. I told one of my close friends from back at home that I got my Cali license and all she said was, “you’re really not coming back now.” I was kinda sad to hear her say that, but she’s right. I’m not coming back. I really don’t even know when I’ll even go back to visit. I miss home every single day, but it’s just not the time for me to go back yet. I have a lot of things that I need to take care of out here.

My car is still registered in MA but I’ll save that for another day. I was informed it’s gonna cost me an arm and a leg to register my car since it was purchased in MA. Definitely dreading that…

Another great video by Wong Fu Productions. I thought this video was beautifully shot and I like the concept a lot. It reminded me of the decisions I’ve made for my own life. For the longest time I felt like I wasn’t really living my life. No matter how many great moments I shared with family and friends back at home, I was never satisfied. I craved for that sense of fulfillment in my life and I guess all it took was for my to leave my hometown. Sounds like such an easy task, but I really had to build up that courage and say fuck it. I got tired of sitting in the backseat watching everyone else chase their dreams and accomplish their goals. I was proud of them yet I was very envious to see them live so freely. I was pretty independent prior to my move, but that didn’t mean shit. I was always putting my life on pause for others especially for my parents. Their approval meant a lot to me and of course they disapproved for me leaving so far to such an unfamiliar territory. I was always kinda scared to rebel back when it came to the topic of me moving out of state. I was always bold, didn’t listen and did whatever I want. Although there were definitely boundaries so I wasn’t entirely a total wild child just doing whatever the fuck I wanted lol.

Looking back at my life nearly 4 years ago, I was a fresh college graduate. I fought so hard to stay in my field because I was so passionate about my career. I couldn’t fathom the thought of doing anything else other than design. Being in California now, I definitely feel I have potential to grow to where I want to be in my career. Not to sound overly cocky, but I’m determined. It still til this day blows my mind that I just kinda up and left haha. But I’m glad I’ve been able to have endured this experience and to share this story with anyone now or in the next 20 years. During an interview a potential employer asked me where do I see myself in 10 years. Shit, I didn’t even know in 5 years I’d see myself moving out of Boston lol. I really have no idea where I see myself in 10 years. I’m hoping to accomplish a lot more in the next 10 years and really be where I want to be. Honestly it kind of freaks me out to even think about what’s gonna happen in the next several years. I don’t wanna get too ahead of myself. I do have things I’d like to accomplish but I haven’t necessarily given myself deadlines for these goals. Well, maybe a couple haha.

I’ve definitely come a long way for the person I’ve grown to be and who I was back at home. Sometimes I kind of miss certain aspects of my life and “that” type of person I was. Yet at the same time I’m trying my best to embrace the person I’ve become since I’ve been here. It’s kinda help me to stay a bit more grounded and it actually reminds me of how I was when I was reallyyyy young. I think that’s the person I’ve been trying to bring back for a long time but I’ve been so distracted. It’s nice to know the old me is still there no matter what I’m trying to do with my life.