It’s been really nice out and ridiculously humid this past week, and I haven’t had the chance to enjoy the weather at all. I’ve been busy with packing and trying to see my friends before I leave. Things have been stressful and chaotic, but not as stressful as before. I’ve had a difficult time trying to relax which has definitely affected the way I sleep and eat. The stress was driving me crazy. Anyways, when I woke up yesterday I decided to just lay out in the sun and tan, have an ice cold beer and enjoy some music. It was the first time in a veryyyyyyyyyyyy long time where I felt so relaxed. My mind felt at such ease that I haven’t felt in awhile. It was almost comforting to know and to feel that everything is gonna be okay and that things are slowly coming together. I wasn’t just stressed out with my move, but there were so many factors and my relocating just added on to it. Although I wasn’t doing much and I was only outside for an hour since the heat was unbearable, it was definitely much needed. As weird as it may sound, I just felt some kind of reassurance that I’ve been hoping to feel for a long time and it feels great. 🙂
When something is too good to be true, it tends to become a bit questionable.
It’s quite a shame for the lack of people that aren’t as humble and honest anymore.
J. Holiday – Suffocate
“Absence makes the heart grow fonder.”
Lana Del Rey – Young and Beautiful (The Great Gatsby Version)
Point is …I guess I still need you as much as you need me.
I was supposed to post pictures on my Xanga of my 3 day trip to Chicago back in early April of this year. Never got around to posting pictures yet alone uploading pictures up until last week haha. I absolutely miss Chicago. I wouldn’t mind living there one day. It’s like a great combination of …
I’ve been busy dealing with my whole relocation process. Let me tell you, it is the most stressful thing I’ve ever dealt with especially if you’re coming from one coast to the other side. Been making arrangements for my move, packing, and etc. I just hope this move goes smoothly but I’m probably jinxing myself already lol. It’s been very overwhelming and my remaining time here has been very restricting. I’m trying to spend as much time with my parents and close friends before I leave. There’s just so many things I want to get done before I go. I at least want to try to make a final trip to New York and see my close friends there before I go. I’m excited yet mostly sad to leave. I’ve met some great people in my future new home, but my friendship with those people can’t compare whatsoever to the ones I have here. I have such supportive and great friends that they’re already planning a going away party for me. Seriously, what am I gonna do without them? I already get a tiny bit teary eyed to hear them tell me how proud they are of me and say such sweet things to me. I feel very homesick already and I’m not even gone yet haha. It has been a long time coming and I’m glad I am finally able to move. Not gonna lie, but I am scared shitless for what’s to come once I do get settled in. I’m gonna be in a new environment all by myself and it’s freaking me out, but I’m ready for this change. It’s something I’ve wanted for a long time. There’s constantly so many things running through my mind that it’s making it very difficult for me to get any sleep if any. Usually running on 2-3 hours of sleep which is horrible. Perhaps another run will make me feel better…
I just got home from the gym on this rainy Friday night. I’ve been fairly busy all day and with my stress and increasingly short temper, I decided to go for a run tonight. I really needed it. My knee and ankle hasn’t really been treating me so great lately, but I just didn’t care. I should’ve taken it easy tonight, but I have to say I do feel much more refreshed. It’s been awhile since I ran especially after my ankle injury. I was doing other workouts, but it didn’t compare to how I felt when I ran. I feel very relaxed right now …minus having to ice my ankle and knee as I’m typing up this post. I’ve been very high strung and very snappy, and it’s really not a good look lol. I’m very thankful for my friends that has been putting up with my shit lately and they’ve been nothing but been completely understanding. With all the bad days that were accumulating, it just really got to me. I’ve been very emotional and extra sensitive when it comes to certain things, but I know I’ll be okay. The other night ended on a bad note and I just lost it. I broken down wondering when is it all gonna end. Yet somehow I still have a bit of hope left that everything will be okay. I’m trying my best to take it one day at a time. Planning to go on another run tomorrow.
Anyways, I plan on spending the remainder of my night organizing files on my laptop and hopefully end it with a book before bed. I seriously need to get a new laptop before my Macbook Pro decides to completely give up on me lol. It’s shelf life isn’t looking too good at the moment. Oh yeah, I found a buyer for my DSLR and let me tell you, I am really bummed. I was borderline close to calling off the deal with the buyer, but I’ll just invest in another one.
Well, cheers to a peaceful Friday night! 🙂